God Herself
A Brief Meditation

By T. Thorn Coyle
Originally appeared in "Witch Eye Volume 15"

Sing rapturous love–song unto me! Burn to me perfumes! Wear to me jewels! Drink to me, for I love you! I love you! I am the blue lidded daughter of Sunset; I am the naked brilliance of the voluptuous night–sky
– from Liber al Vel Legis, channeled by Aleister Crowley

The Star Goddess breathes out and everything rises. The Star Goddess breathes in, and all things contract. Her breath, the breath of the Limitless, infuses and connects every living thing. We can connect with this breath. We can dance the dance of all creation, with her, for we are reflections of her beauty.
God Herself is beyond gender. She is all gender and no gender. She is the great Zero, the limitless, holder of the Cosmic Egg from which all life flows and to which all life returns. We cannot think of God Herself as One, because that separates her out from all else. Rather, thinking of her as Zero, the circumference that includes everything and the center point around which everything else revolves, is closer to the experienced reality. Nuit and Hadit, yesh  and ayin, form and emptiness, there is nothing that is not part of the fabric of God Herself. Another name for this fabric is love.

The essence of God is that there is no essence of God, for God is all and nothing, here, now and forever. – Reb Yerachmiel ben Yisrael

            Monotheists almost had it right in speaking of the unity of love, but they did not yet have the number zero, the cipher, the void. By naming something one, they were trying to get at its unity. What they were not able to realize at the time, is that naming something one, instead of all, is a first separation out, it is a distancing that makes the All the Other. And therein lies trouble. Therein lies alienation. One, rather than remaining a unifying force, becomes a separate being. And that separation opens a deep wound.
Mystics of all religions and cultures have experienced the truth of the wholeness of God Herself as zero and all, regardless of the name their religion assigns to this concept of deity. Those that are not mystics have not always felt this unity, and have waged many bloody wars over the separation and disconnection they have felt.
We sometimes fight these wars inside of ourselves, whether we believe in many Gods, no Gods, one God or a limitless Divinity that is all. We can feel separate from God Herself. We can disconnect from the pattern of love. The practices in this book lead us back into connection and the flow of the Limitless. In that flow we can become the center to her circumference and we can learn to include all. The limitless is beyond duality, beyond black and white, dark and light, anger and hope, though she is within all of these and expressed through all of these. The limitless is zero and many, nothing and all.

Emptiness does not differ from form, form does not differ from emptiness.  – The Heart Sutra

            We ourselves are whole, a unified being. Yet our parts can act as though they are separate. Our mind and emotions can fight, each insisting that it, and it alone, is “I”. This is the lie that causes conflict and dissolution within. However, there are ways to remember that we are Her reflections, and reflect the universe in turn. Just as all possibility abides in love, all possibility rests within us.
We must practice presence, bringing our whole lives to bear on our spiritual work. There is nothing beyond this. The Star Goddess is everything. The Twins are figures of the duality we parse emptiness into. The Peacock is the synthesis back to wholeness, a reflection in his mother’s mirror.
To practice presence, we first draw in breath. We then notice our feet, our thighs, our shoulders, the back of our heads. We see what is in front of us and feel what is within. We are moving through the world, as we are, encountering the world as it is. Every leaf on each tree practices with us. Every scrap of paper on the sidewalk is another piece of life.
We practice where we are, not where we should be. Too many of us do magic for a life we think we should have. We set ourselves up for failure because we are not honest about who we are right in this moment. Magic is simple. But to get simple takes a lot of work, a lot of practice, a lot of presence.
There is no self without unity and no unity without self. This is reality. Step through the door.

In the dust of Her feet are the hosts of heaven/ and Her star sequined hair/ Is crowned with a coven of six and seven/ Blue suns burning there.
– from Quakoralina, the Star Goddess written by Victor H. Anderson

Thorn Coyle: Internationally known teacher and author of “Evolutionary Witchcraft” (Tarcher/Penguin), Thorn is an initiate in the Anderson Feri and Reclaiming Traditions of the Craft, which - along with her studies in esotericism and philosophy - form the foundation for her magical line. Blending the art of the Witch with the science of the Magician she works toward the practice of spiritual evolution. www.thorncoyle.com

From Open Secret by Rami Shapiro. This pamphlet may be ordered at http://www.humankindness.org



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